Well, here I am again......can someone please wake me up cos I must be in a fucking nightmare surely my life can't be this bad?.........wake up call!!!!! yes it is my life and yes it really is this bad...... :'(
I am childfree at the moment cos the kids are at my mums for a few days and to be honest I would probably feel better with them being with me....cos when there are here Im focusing on them so now Im just stuck....trapped....imprisoned....and any other word you would like to use for the way I feel........it is just fucking shit it's a gorgeous day out there and Im sat indoor's with all the curtains and blinds closed like some fucking recluse. ahhhhhhhh And those cunts next door have been in there fucking garden all day I can't even go in the garden to have a cigarette!!!!!!

OMG what is going on and how did I get like this it's awful....most people would think ...lovely time out from the kids but I think OMG I will be on my own in the house stuck like a prisoner!!!!!

Sorry Im really not myself

xx